Wednesday Weigh In

Well after a long absence I weighed in again this morning.  Today’s weight was 236.  I can’t say I’m surprised, because although I’ve been fairly true to my exercise schedule, I have been sloppy with food:

• Mindless snacking during long meetings, or while watching TV at home
• Eating well past the point of fullness
• Eating a big lunch AND a big dinner – with a couple glasses of wine
• Eating in response to stress or boredom

I feel like I’ve been in a plateau forever – not the typical type where the scale won’t move despite watching your food and exercise – but more of a mental plateau.  Despite knowing how to change my habits and even managing to change some of them I seem to have stalled on my mental progress.

I will give myself props for not completely abandoning healthy habits over the past two months – the old Jill would have decided that traveling = no rules and just taken advantage of every opportunity to indulge.  I could have gained 10-15 pounds or more by now, instead of just 3.  Each day I strive to get in several servings of fruit & veg as well as some whole grains and healthy proteins.  Dinners have been a little heavy on the refined carbs, mostly because after a long day I tend to drift towards comfort foods.  I’m going to forgive myself for partially falling into old habits because I’ve also managed to hold onto many of the new ones.

This forgiveness doesn’t mean I’m going to stop working on improving myself, just that I’m going to stop beating myself up for not living up to my own expectations.  Clearly I need to spend more time exploring the reasons why I eat and continuing working on making permanent changes.  More on that soon!